Nightmares

How cliche right? Have one post on dreams and then now one on nightmares... Haha! I don't know what on earth i was thinking but just a few days ago, i dreamt that i had another paper during the holidays. A specific one just on molecular kinetics. God damn it, but there isn't such a topic in my funmed module. What the hell was i thinking of. And then suppossedly, there was also another one on pharmacology: pharmacokinetics and also on some other shitty topics. To top it off, i got so scared after waking up that i went to Diana's room to ask her if there was really a test. Can you believe it? Argh, i feel like killing myself! Got laughed at by Aaron and her in the end! Well, serves me right.

Anyway, I'm at my cousin's place now. Feels really good to be here at times, coz this place reminds me of home. And btw, I'm sorry peeps if I'm not going home, haiz especially MO. It's not that i don't wanna go home, but it's just that i can't bear to splurge the money. First thing, I'll probably be using someone else's money, which i'll be really guilty to use. In fact, i always have to refuse an offer like this because i really can't stand depending on someone else. The feeling sucks totally. No one will ever know the pride-swallowing siege that i had to endure when i was quarreling with someone back then. But it's all right, at least it's led me to realise that i should learn how to stand on my two feet and work for what i want.

And also because of this, it has at least led me to realise the importance of money. Well, to me, money is not that important, but sometimes it is. My dad always shoots me for this by telling the whole world "My son says that money is not important". It's really hurting and embarassing each time he says that. It's not that i think money is not important. It's just that to me, it's not the most important thing. Sigh, at least he's got me to learn to say that money is in fact, still important. Argh, i don't know... But i feel that i rather stay here instead of wasting the money going back. Shit, now i'm beginning to sound materialistic, but at least, understand the amount of pain that my family has to suffer to send me back and forth peeps. Sometimes, what my dad say is true although i don't really like admitting it. Even if you've got money, you shouldn't just simply spend it coz you've got it. You've got to save it. Otherwise, how do people save up to eventually lead a better life. Besides, i've got things to do here so i shan't go back this time round. I have to say this: MO's a different exception... He's earning freaking too much! Haha.

So yar, i hope that you will forgive me for not going back... Gomenai...

Dreams...

Have you ever wondered what dreams are, and what do they mean? From ancient times, dreams have long been associated with predictions of the future, things that could possibly happen such as in "The Pharoaph's Dream".

Just 2 days ago, I had a dream about my previous crush. Well, some of you may know who she is, and some of you not. Well, the dream was really weird. I was standing in VTC in my usual spot next to the phone when suddenly she appeared. I don't know why, but after some time, MO gave me a ring to propose to her. WTH! I couldn't believe that happened. And i didn't know what to do, coz i don't want to commit myself to something that i couldn't decide upon at that time and end up hurting people. But then again, it's her! And i couldn't believe i did. WTH! Do people in dreams do irrational things? I hope so... Otherwise i'll be ashamed at myself. So anyways, back to the dream, she was suddenly in London with me. I don't understand what my dream means. I've already told myself to put it down behind me coz I really felt that i was getting way into her life. And did i really like her 100%? I wasn't sure of that too. Plus if i were to wait for 4.5 years, what if things suddenly change and she's not the one? Was the dream an inner desire? Was it something that i wanted all along? Perhaps i shouldn't even call it a crush coz after the dream i was somewhat happy and smiley. Lol!

But then again, i occasionally have wet dreams and erhem... Yeah, my dark secret! Do you call that an inner desire? Perhaps the lust bit but i really wished i could put all of those back behind and not look at it. Then again, i know that i've gotta face the consequences. So all in all, should i call a dream something that is constantly bugging the sub-concious side of us? Sigh, is it ever possible to let go and not have anymore of these dreams? No doubt, erhem... The feeling is good, but it's terrifying as well... I swear it is! This is probably a scar that i've gotta live with all my life, so please don't think that "I was so lucky"...

Anyways, i've been doing jack shit for the holidays, everyday waking up at 3 plus... and 5 two days ago! Argh... I can't believe it. Thank goodness I've replied to quite a few e-mails today and sorted out my mail folders. Hope to do sth useful over the next few days so that I'll feel more satisfied with myself. And yay, Bleach 62 is out. But there's some problems with the download :( Anyways, merry x'mas to u ppl and enjoy yourselves!

The Angelman in Bleach

Anyways, i realised from Diana that Shinigamis (Death Gods) are actually something that's part of Japanese culture. Apparently, the japanese people believe in them and so, lots of cartoons have it...

So, all the more ppl who like to learn about jap culture should watch it. (Yes, i'm referring to you maybel!) Haha!

Anyways, was watching the new episode of Bleach today and studying... And i think i'm going crazy! Haha...

And then i suddenly thought about Bleach and out of nowhere, some sort of stupid theory struck me! I diagnosed that Ichimaru had Angelman's syndrome. Lol! That was so stupid. Ichimaru Gin is one of the characters in there who wears a constant sly smile on his face. You never seem to know what he is up to. At times, when you think he's bad, he apparently comes into the picture to offer to help someone. So weird but exciting right? Ahaha!


Anyway, it was really funny when we diagnosed that. Haha! Matthew, Diana and me just went nuts laughing for a while, till our stomachs hurt. And shit, now I feel bad about comparing these kids to a cartoon character. But anyways, yeaps, Crazy Day. Hopefully the last till exams are over.

Diana was suggesting that we set up a Bleach Club or sth. Lol, we can collect 5 pounds from everyone, telecast free Bleach every Wednesday on CCA day (which also happens to be the day each episode of Bleach is released), and cosplay! Ahaha, i think we're going nuts!

Some bad news today: My toilet got flooded... Urgh, have to let the resident offices know and there was just a fire alarm just now at 12:30 am. Crazy right? Haha, Matthew and me were in my shorts!!

And the good news: Mom's graduating with her Masters. Congrats mom. Really proud of you, especially for someone who was initially chinese educated, and got first-class Honours when she went to UK. I must really say i respect her to the core. And of coz, my bro's out of BMT! Whee boy~ I sent Bleach home for you too... Hope u'll receive it soon. And of course, hope you've got a good posting.

Matthew asked me what musical instruments i know how to play... And i told him recorder... And then he laughed his ass off and asked if he could put that on his blog... ... ... Haha! Lol okay, gotta sleep now to get enough rest for MedSoc tomorrow.

Jay Chou - Qing Tian

故事的小黄花
从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在

ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
re sou sou xi dou xi
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou


吹着前奏望着天空
我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍

没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开

刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久 我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

The Singapore Weather

Diana posted something very funny, and i thought that i'd just put it up here. Haha!



It's so weird when sometimes we keep complaining about Singapore's weather. Don't you think?

Added this song that Tanny likes... We thought it was nice too. Enjoy it ppl!

PBL Write-up

I can't believe i spent so many hours doing my PBL write-up. Been working almost the entire day (not to mention i played a bit too :p... Haha! That's not important).

I must say i'm proud to have written a 2000 word essay (Had problems constricting it... Matt and me used the picture-squeeze text-cheat method). But using 37 references is crazy. Did i spend too much time on it or what? But anyway, gotta finish the other one tomorrow so that i can start studying for exams!

And right now, the "She likes me for me..." song is playing in my head right now. Will try to put it up asap!

Brainwaves

Courtesy of my cousin, i just realised that my general knowledge is not as exceptional as his. Argh!

Your IQ Is 120

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test